Sunday, December 30, 2012 at 9:41PM ;)
True, I did post the wedding of Sujitha and Manoj, but in the morning before the wedding began, I did some casual shots of
Friday, May 4, 2012 at 11:57PM ;)
I wrote this in Part 2 - the true introduction to this series:
Even though I had an intellectual knowledge of Soundarya's death, emotionally I had never accepted it. I had not seen her body, I had attended no funeral service, I had not been present at her cremation or for the release of her ashes into the sacred waters. Inside me, there has been a stubborn streak that has refused to accept her death as permanent - even in the mortal sense.
For almost 15 months, against all logic and evidence, this stubborn streak had continued to tell me she would somehow reconstitute herself and we would return to our regular exchange of emails and chats. She would still come to Alaska to visit Margie and me and we would yet ride bicycles together through Denali Park and she could bungee jump off a certain bridge that spans the Copper River and paraglide off the Chugach. These were things she wanted to do.
So I came to India in the hope I might at last make my whole self come to an understanding of the truth, to find a way to accept that truth and come to terms with it.
I came intent to visit the place where she took her life, the crematorium where her body was returned to ash and dust, and the holy waters into which her ash and dust had been released. It is kind of like when you lose a person you love in a car crash. Even if you weren't there when it happened, you go to the site where it took place. You look at the skid, oil, and maybe burn marks left on the road. Then you go to the junk yard to look at the crumpled car, the blood stains inside it. You go to the funeral home; view the body. You attend the funeral, then stand beside the grave as your loved one is lowered into the ground. None of this is macabre. When you lose someone you love, you just have a human need to know what the full process was that took them from the living person you loved into the grave.
If I could see the places and things that told of her process, I thought, I might finally, wholly, know. I might accept the truth and come to terms with it.
And so, on March 6, Niece Sujitha hired a cab and a driver to take us on this journey. We began right here, just over a block from her parents' home, beneath the under-construction Metro track.
;)
Our planned destinations: the place of death, the crematorium, and the sacred waters - but in reverse order.
Of all these destinations, the sacred waters was the farthest away. I cannot remember exactly, but I think it was about 65 kilometers - a half-hour journey on a typical American highway, but, given the congested traffic of Southern India and the narrow highway, it would take two-and-a-half hours. I didn't mind the time. In fact, I was glad for it. It gave Sujitha and me time to just sit and talk, to share the feelings we have about all that has happened since Anil and Nikhil died in the tragic crash that spawned so much tragedy and heartbreak. I also needed the time to better fortify and prepare my mind for the visits to come.
Many tears fell as we talked and our driver motored us toward the sacred waters. My mind is conditioned to analyze the picture possibilities at all times and in all situations. In Sujitha's falling tears, I saw strong picture possibilities. Sujitha wants to help me tell the story of her sister and knows that to tell that story I must have pictures of pain and I knew she would be okay with it.
Yet, on this drive I took no pictures of those tears. For the moment, I just set my camera aside and shared those tears with her.
In fact, I hardly took any pictures at all on this drive - but I did take this one, during a pause in the conversation, a moment of cessation of tears. I also took the image that follows:
;)
I believe the needs I stated above at what one experiences at the loss of a loved one are inherent in all humans, be they male or female. Certainly, it proved to be so for Sujitha. She had been there with her entire nuclear family and several close extended family when her sister had so suddenly and unbelievably slipped through not only her sleeping embrace, but the collective embrace of all present and had taken her own life.
Yet, Sujitha, too, had missed the cremation and the release of ash into the sacred waters. In fact, Soundarya had also missed these moments in the funeral rites for her husband Anil. It is the practice of their particular religious group that only men attend and participate in these final rituals of cremation and dispersal. The women stay behind. Soundarya had stayed behind when it had been Anil. Suji had stayed behind for Anil and then, just one day later, for Soundu, too.
Yet, she had that burning need to know first hand, to see, to touch, to feel all that had happened to her sister - the same burning need that I felt, but from the perspective of one who had lost not only her admired and beloved older sister, but her best friend. So one day, without telling anyone, Sujitha found her way to the crematorium. The people who operated it proved most understanding. They brought her inside, they showed her the recorded names of her sister and brother-in-law. They showed her the oven each had gone into - one, one day, the other the next. They allowed her to witness cremation.
Then she knew.
She also determined she would visit the sacred waters where her sister's ash had been released, but she had not done so yet - in part, because she had gone off to join Manoj in London - but also because she knew I needed to go there, too, and I would come for her wedding. So she decided to wait, and take me there herself. Then she would take me to the cremation site, show me what she had seen and afterward we would visit the house where Soundarya and Anil had lived, where Soundarya had died.
There had been some concern among family members when they became aware that she, a woman, was going to take me to this place where the women of their group do not go to see their dead off or return to mourn for them afterward. I was worried, but she told me not to be. She told me that after we visited there and then nothing bad happened as a result, it would be okay. The family would accept what she had done. They would embrace her and love her still, with no recrimination. Soundarya, Sujitha, Ganesh - born into a loving family - daughters, son - all, female and male, deeply loved and cherished. This I have seen and felt.
;)
About half-way into the drive, we stopped at the roadside stand of a coconut vendor. Sujitha bought three coconuts - one for the driver, one for herself and one for me. The heat was near searing, and the cool, sweet, milk of the coconut proved to be an excellent and refreshing quencher of thirst.
As we drank the milk of the coconuts, I saw a man walking with two head of cattle down the road. I briefly thought about going out to photograph him, but then I thought, "No, I will hold back. If he wants me to photograph him, he will let me know and then I will."
The man walked a short distance past us with his two head, and then he stopped. He spoke to another man in his own language. That man then told me that he had asked if I would take a picture of him.
So I did, and this is it.
The sun is harsh. It casts dark shadows on his eyes and forces him to squint. You cannot see his eyes in this photo. You can see his pride. I had no way to give him a picture, but it didn't matter. He knew I had taken it, he knew I would show it to others in far away places and these people would then know he existed, here in South India, with at least two head of cattle, of which he was proud.
;)
In time, we came to a junction and turned left onto the less busy fork. I knew we were drawing near. I began to grow nervous, almost fearful. My breath grew short. The road we were on looked familiar. I was all but certain I had gone down this road on a side track to a temple and swimming hole when Melanie and I had toured Mysore with Vasanthi, Buddy, Soundarya and Anil following the May wedding of 2009.
We traveled for a bit longer, and then the driver came to a shaded place on an embankment over the Kaveri River. People milled all about, yet there was an air of quiet and serenity to it - in contrast to the emotions tearing at my gut. This was the small community of Srirangapatna - a holy place. Down below, on the river bank, a large platform made of stones descended in steps down into the water. A small structure that looked to me to be a shrine stood on the far corner of the platform, above the river. This was Sangama, an "amalgamation of three holy rivers" - the Kaveri, Kabini and Hemativi.
It was from this platform that Anil's ash had been released into the holy waters one day and then Soundarya's the next. I wanted to go down to that water, but I did not want to go down to the water. I wanted both to put my hands into the water and to turn away from the pain and leave, to say that I had seen the water and the place and that was enough. Yet, it was not enough.
A short distance in front of us, I could see three beggars sitting, their open palms extended out in plea to passersby. Sujitha, who insisted on covering my every expense when I was with her, gave me a few ten rupee notes to give to them, then hurried down to Sangama. That's her, up ahead of the man in the cream colored shirt, walking resolutely toward the Sangama shrine.
I took the picture, then gave the rupees to the beggars and set off to catch up to Sujitha.
;)
When I reached her, I saw this man wading through the water in front of us. On each side of us were separate, very small groups of men, priests among them, covered from the waist down by their wrap-around panches, their upper torsos bare. Incense and oil burned. Coconuts, bananas, garlands and other flowers lay on stones near them, along with two orange clay urns to our left and one to the right. The urns were open at the top with only flowers and leaves to serve as lids.
The sun stood close to straight overhead and the heat bore down upon us. I shot a few frames of the man in the water and did not look too closely at the men to the sides or at what they were doing. I did not seek to photograph them or to intrude upon the final, sacred, rites they conducted. Sujitha observed that the man wading in the water had some kind of wire sieve into which he scooped and strained material from the bottom of the river. Then he would peer closely into the sieve, apparently in search of whatever valuables might have been left behind.
;)
We sat there in the stifling heat, feeling the overwhelming sorrow as the holy river flowed by before us.
;)
Beyond this step was another. In the water above it, tiny, minnow-sized, fish swam. Sujitha told me these fish will bite your feet. When she was younger and would go to a river's edge with Soundarya and Ganesh, her brother and sister liked to stick their feet into the water where these type of fish swim. They liked the feeling as the fish nibbled away at the dead skin on their feet, doing them no harm. Suji did not like the fish to bite her. She kept her feet away from them.
I wanted to experience this for myself, so I stuck my feet into the warm, deeper water over the next step. The fish completely ignored my feet.
"They won't bite because your feet are too clean," Suji observed.
My feet are American feet, always protected by shoes and boots. They lacked the thick callous and tough, dead skin that had built up on the most often bare feet of Sandy and Ganesh. The fish had no appetite for live human foot flesh - only for dead.
I would not get to experience the sensation Sandy and Ganesh had loved to feel as the fish nibbled away at their feet. I pulled my feet back onto the same step as Sujitha's. I noticed my toenails were too long. I had not clipped them in awhile. They, too, remain always hidden in my shoes and boots. I just don't think about clipping them until they start to bother me a bit, or Margie complains that they are poking holes in my socks.
;)
Sujitha had saved a rose from a garland that had adorned her sister's body. She had dried it and had kept the remnants in this little plastic container, just for this moment.
;)
She handed the container to me and told me she wanted me to be the one to release the rose into the holy waters. I suggested we do it together. We did.
;)
The remants of the rose that had adorned Soundarya Anil Kumar drifted off in the modest current. Oil released from a burning lamp in an an upstream ceremony joined it.
;)
Sujitha gently placed the container upon the water. It followed after.
;)
Sujitha had also saved this scarf to give to me as a memento of Muse, my soul friend, her sister. As we sat in the hot embrace of the sun, I pressed Sandy's scarf tight against my face, breathed through it and held it there for many minutes. I could still smell traces of the life that had been hers.
After 15 months, I finally said goodbye.
Suji wept. So did I.
In time, the group of men downstream to our left finished their rituals and left. We could see that the four men to our right would soon deliver the urn now in their care into the water as well. "You can take pictures," Suji told me. "It's okay. They won't mind."
Feeling most unsure of myself, I shot a couple of trial frames of nothing significant. The priests did not mind. They then picked the urn up from a plate-like platform which, along with a split-open coconut, a garland and bananas, had sat atop an elevated stone behind them. Flowers and leaves lay over the ash in the urn. Smoke rose from what appeared to be a tiny container of burning oil atop the outer edge of the flowers. Together, the four men reached out to lift the urn over the river's edge, lowered it to the surface of the holy waters...
;)
...and let it go.
;)
The urn floated for perhaps one foot, then the shoreward lip of it dipped beneath the surface, sacred water poured into it to displace ash which then spilled out in a brown plume into the river. The urn sank. As ash and flowers drifted ahead of it, a large air bubble escaped from the sunken urn and burst through the surface.
Then, as the plume drifted past us, the tiny fish that eat the dead skin of calloused feet suddenly began to shoot and dart through the ash, breaking the surface of the sacred waters with their chomping mouths as they did so. Nutrients still remained in the ash. The person whose flesh had contained those nutrients had no more use of them, but the fish did. The physical part of this person had been completely returned to the larger world and now nourished the environment from which it had been made.
So too had it been with the physical body of my dear friend and Muse, Soundarya. Of this, my knowledge was now certain.
;)
Sujitha, 15 minutes and 54 seconds after the ash had been released into the river - according to the metadata on my pictures. We spoke very little during that time. We just sat there, quietly, soft tears sliding, thinking about, feeling, what we had just witnessed.
;)
After another four minutes, Sujitha got up. Before we returned to the cab, she wanted to look for something among the vendors set up at the top of the rise, so she suggested that I spend a few more minutes here contemplating by myself. She dipped her hands into the sacred waters, rinsed off her arms, face, forehead and head and then, standing in place, turned a complete circle.
She instructed me to do the same before I departed. She then headed back up the hill.
;)
Five minutes later, after performing the ritual just as I had observed her do, I left, but paused to look back upon and take this one last image of Sangama - the place where the ashes of Muse and soul friend Soundarya had followed those of her husband Anil into the holy amalgamation of rivers.
Over an hour had passed since we had arrived and it had been a long drive before that. I needed to use the restroom but when I got to the top of the rise there was a boy stationed outside the door to collect an entrance fee. I had no more rupees, but it didn't matter - Suji had already paid the fee for me.
;)
After driving a very short distance away from the site we came to an intersection I felt certain I recognized from the 2009 trip. If we were to turn right, I told Suji, I thought we might soon come upon a yellow temple. We turned right, and quickly did come upon a yellow temple. Suji purchased various alms for us to leave at the temple, including the coconuts and the garland that can barely be seen beyond her left side. We went inside.
Soundarya had expressed differing thoughts about religion. She would visit the temples and perform her Hindu rituals, yet would sometimes go sit in a Christian chapel, where she found comfort in the quiet and serenity. Sujitha does this also. On one of her social networking sites, Sandy listed her religion as "human" on another, "atheist." She would often tell me she had been praying for me, was praying for me, would pray for me. In one writing to me, she referenced the coming day when she would "stand before my God."
As I have written before, she once found an injured crow and brought it into her apartment to nurse it back to health. When her landlord discovered the bird, he vehemantly ordered her to evict the crow, or he would evict her. A crow in the house will bring seven years of bad luck to the house, many in her culture believe. She refused to evict the crow until it had healed.
She loved this whole family of birds - crows and their raven cousins - as she loved all animals, bugs and cobras included. Anytime I would happen upon a raven here in Wasilla, I would photograph it and then email the photo to her. Once, shortly before she and Anil married, we were chatting and she told me how they had been out on her motorbike. They found what I remember her describing as an injured raven, but I think it was probably a crow. Maybe I just remember wrong, because I was always sending her pictures of ravens. It doesn't matter. The two birds are closely related. Both are intelligent, clever, cunning, share many attributes and Soundarya shared the love she felt for both with me. At her home, the bird would most likely be a crow; at mine, a raven.
She picked up the injured bird and sat down behind Anil on her motorbike. As he drove in search of a vet, she cradled the big, black, injured, scared, bird and sang to it.
"What did you sing?" I asked. I thought she might name a Hindu lullabye I had never heard of.
"Safe in the Arms of Jesus," she answered.
They found a vet, but he scolded them for bringing the bird to them and told them to take it away. Sandy scolded him right back. He yielded to her, accepted the crow/raven as a patient and treated it. When it came time to release the healed bird, a crowd gathered. The crow/raven flapped its wings and flew away. The people cheered.
;)
We passed through the temple and came out with red marks upon our foreheads. I had taken the interior shot from the one place inside where photographs were allowed. Now, I wanted an exterior shot. We still had other places to go and needed to move along, so I decided to shoot a quick picture, right where we were - just for the record.
Just as I pressed the shutter button, this crow flew into the frame.
Coincidence - this is what my intellect tells me the appearance of the crow was.
Coincidence - there have been so many.
My heart tells me otherwise. My heart tells me the crow was a gift.
;)
Sujitha asked the driver if he knew of a good restaurant and so he took us to this place, a resort. The restaurant was large, filled with abundant table space and empty of customers. Two waiters stood nearby. We took the seat of our choice and then just sat and quietly visited. The underlying sorrow had not disappeared, yet atop it there was now an extraordinary feeling of warmth, a feeling of peace, different from any I had ever felt before.
Perhaps this is why we sat there in an otherwise empty dining room with two waiters watching over it, for a full half-hour before we finally asked the waiters if they ever intended to take our order.
The food - nothing like Vasanthi's, or Bhanu's. It did not match the restaurant Sujitha took me to on her bike before we went wedding shopping.
Still, it was good.
;)
Early during the drive back, Suji produced a diary in which she had penned the words of a poem Soundu had written for her on her birthday and then texted to her:
My Angel baby,
These are not just words but prayers...
May you live in joy, wealth and prosperity for many more years!
This is the best gift one can ever get...
To lay in the arms of the loved one, you bet!
A boon you are to us,
So shall you receive many a bonus!
And smiles all through...
My Angel,
May all your dreams turn true!
Soundu
01:44 am 02/10/2009
;)
In her emails and chats, Sandy would often write of her sister and always with great affection. She seldom referred to her as "Sujitha" or even "Suji."
"Barbie," she called her.
Barbie, immediately after reading the birthday poem Soundu wrote to her in 2009.
;)
I no longer felt any need to visit the death site, or the crematorium. I did not want anything to break the feeling of warmth and peace the visit to the river had given me, the solace I now shared with Sujitha. We both felt the same. We decided instead to return to the Ravichandran home in Bangalore.
;)
Suji slept.
;)
Upon our return, notwithstanding what we had witnessed and the beautiful feeling afterward, I still found the message of the garland a hard one to bear. It still hurt to look at it.
My eyelids felt heavy, in need of a nap. I went into Ganesh's room, which had also become my room for the duration of my stay. I turned on the overhead fan and lay down upon the bed. I was definitely better off for having made my visit to the sacred waters with Suji, yet, lying there beneath the spinning fan, the pain still seared. I closed my eyes and soon fell into that strange state of consciousness between wakefulness and sleep when one is aware of what surrounds him, yet engulfed in dreamlike visions of other places and experiences as they float through his head.
I saw myself as a youth, scaling and walking along the tops of cliffs on a stretch of seacoast on the edge of the redwood forest about 25 miles north of Eureka, California, beneath a pristine, blue sky in a stiff breeze with a chill to it. Down below, I could see a narrow, rocky beach, pounded by the constant onslaught of big, roiling, Pacific breakers that endlessly rolled in from their journeys of thousands of miles, one after the other, to explode in a roar of churning, tumbling, surf and then to die in a rush of sizzling froth.
A song from the time period - the mid-60's - came into my head, a song about freedom, about making deep connections with people only to move on in heartbreak, but with new memories to be cherished. I looked at the boy on the cliffs and I thought that when he had walked there, Soundarya did not even exist as a human being - not as a Ravichandran, not as an Anil Kumar. She had not been born, she had not been conceived, she simply... was not.
While beset with the usual problems of adolescence, the boy atop the cliffs felt happy, carefree. He enjoyed the wind, was enthralled by the big, open, blue sky, relished climbing the cliffs and surfing the grand Pacific breakers below. Her absence on this earth caused him no pain at all.
Was the basic situation not the same now? Why, then, all this pain? Yet, pain remained. Coming to terms does not eliminate pain.
;)
Murthy, Vasanthi and I roamed about Gujarat and Rajasthan for six days - just enough time to get a tiny, but flavorful taste. We arrived in Mumbai on the evening of March 19th. Murthy and Vasanthi had to catch their flight to Bangalore almost immediately. Sujitha and Manoj were headed up from Pune to catch a midnight flight back to London from Mumbai, where I would overnight. Suji had planned to meet up for one last hello and goodbye, but shortly after I arrived at the home of my Mumbai hosts, I received a message that they were running late and did not have time to drop by.
Yet, Suji did drop by, her parents with her, in this car driven by one of Manoj's friends. Given the density and unpredictability of Mumbai traffic, she ran a real risk of missing her flight, but she came anyway. They did not have time to come up to the sixth-floor home of my hosts, so I came down and met them in the driveway. Her time in Pune with her husband and new family and her mom and dad had been good. She and Ravi and Bhanu greeted me with smiles and laughter and warm hugs. Then they got back into the car, and left.
A few days ago, she wrote with some thoughts she said I could share in this post. In the past, when she was away from home, her father did not call, but left that to her and others. "Now he is afraid to leave me alone anywhere," she wrote. "He (in Bangalore) has called me twice in three hours (in London) to know when I am reaching home. Fear has engulfed in everyone's heart now, fears of losing the others... I fear nothing now... because... if I can live through this... so CAN others... So COULD YOU."
Never does the love she feels for her sister leave her, or the longing to see and hold her again. "If at all I had said these words to you, if at all before I closed my eyes I hugged you tight and told you how much I loved you... that I feel emptiness around me... when you are not there."
And this is what I have to say to all readers as I close this series (there will be no postscript): When life's dark hours fall upon you, as they surely will, perhaps many times, fight! Fight! Fight the temptations of grief and sorrow. Yell and scream if you must. If you believe in Jesus and it helps you bear the unbearable to pray to Jesus, pray to Jesus! If to kneel at the altar that symbolizes a Hindu deity of your faith is what gives you the strength to endure, then kneel at that altar and pray. If what gets you through is to sit in a roasting sweat lodge with others who mourn and struggle and pray and weep, then go into that sweat lodge, mourn, pray and weep.
For me, in this case, it has been to walk alone; in the north, to tread the frozen lagoons under the midday moon, to shout and scream at the emptiness; in Wasilla, to wander through those loneliest places where I am least likely to encounter others and to converse out loud with one who no longer walks this earth, to communicate with those who do and exchange tears with them, in person, by email, on the phone - Sujitha - in particular. Soul friend Sujitha. You too, Ganesh. Finally, to sit upon a stone step and to place my feet into the warm, sacred, waters. These waters are sacred. I am not Hindu and never will be, but these waters are sacred.
Whatever it takes for you, whatever faith, whatever action in absence of faith, fight on. Survive, survive - until the day circumstance and fate beyond your control removes you from this life. You might not always feel like you can. I sure don't. But, as Suji says, you can. Please do. Survive.
Survive... Survive... Survive...
And never cease to love those who don't survive. And if you must, no matter how precious the thing they took away from you in their seemingly unbearable moment of blind grief, forgive them. They did not mean to hurt you like this. In that desperate moment, they did not fully understand the impact it would have on you. The love they held for you was real and it still lives.
Forgive them. Love them always.
Forgive them... Forgive them... Forgive them...
Forgive yourself.
Love them... Love them... Love them...
Love yourself.
Survive!
Series index:
Bhanu, Kaveri River, Ravi, Sangama, Sujitha, sacred waters in Beyond, Death, Family, India, Soundarya, Sujitha's wedding Tuesday, May 1, 2012 at 2:11PM ;)
I will begin here, with Manoj astraddle the white horse, his bride, brothers and other family behind him, even though the wedding had commenced earlier. The day's ceremonies had begun with a symbolic making of the marital bed, a portrait of Lakshmi at the head, bride and groom dolls and an abundance of food, fertility and prosperity laid out over the bedspread. This was followed by a blessing ceremony, after which the bride and groom changed into their wedding clothes and gathered outside.*
The groom then mounted the white mare. The bride stepped up behind him with his brothers, sisters and other family members on both sides of her. At my side, the blue tail end barely in the fame, was a kind of motorized, rolling, double electric organ set; in front of this, the wedding band from last night's post and, all about, well wishers and wedding guests.
The custom extends back into antiquity, when grooms would carry swords as they rode their white mares and sometimes, in some places, still do.
The procession would sometimes take the groom and his family to the home of the bride, sometimes to the wedding place. Destinations can vary.
;)
The destination today will be a Ganesha temple not far away and then back again. The music is struck by the band and the rolling organ and then Manoj follows them to the road, as his bride follows behind.
;)
And here is the band, and there is the rolling organ, the groom seen through the window behind. The music is loud, strong, energetic.... FUN... the members of the band tilt and jerk ever so slightly this way and that way, in a manner that strikes chords of "reverence," "cool" and "soul" all at once.
;)
And here is the view from inside the rolling organ. Even now, way up here in Wasilla, Alaska, when I look at this picture I can hear and feel the music all around me; I feel the heat of the sun, roasting the air. I remember the glare of that sun upon my head and the burn of it against my skin.
;)
The band, leading the way up the road.
;)
The band leads the way to the temple.
The bride and groom make their alms...
;)
They kneel before the altar...
;)
They look upon and hold their offerings out to the idol of Ganesha, symbol of the Hindu diety Ganesha.
;)
Ganesha.
;)
The couple turns to leave the temple and return to the wedding hall.
;)
The bride, in the midst of the groom's family, as she follows his horse back towards the wedding hall.
;)
The procession suddenly stops - but the music continues. I had attended two previous Hindu weddings, both down south in Bangalore. There had been no dancing of any kind - not during the wedding, not during the reception and feast that preceded and followed the ceremonies.
But now, two young women begin to dance...
;)
Then men begin to dance.
;)
Such beauty, here beneath the hot, harsh, sun! I felt blessed, just to be able to witness such a moment.
;)
The men danced with men, and the women danced with women. Those from Southern India joined right in (right). All laughed and had fun.
;)
Now, joyously, both families mix together, they walk to the large opening into the hallway to the open-air wedding hall.
;)
The bride and groom enter.
;)
Soon, the bride and groom are on the wedding platform. The priest leads them through a number of blessings and rituals.
;)
Finally, the priest hands two necklaces to the groom.
;)
After placing the necklace made of thin, black beads around Sujitha's neck, Manoj follows with the gold.
;)
Manoj and Sujitha are now formally wed in Hindu tradition, as practiced by the Lingayat. For any westerners who might think of Hinduism as a monolitic religion, it is not - no more than is Christianity with its multitude of different sects, each of which shares a certain basic belief in Christ but with countless variations and interpretations of it.
So too is it in Hinduism.
;)
After draping each other with garlands, the bride and groom stand between their parents as rice flies. There are more events to happen - the washing of the feet of bride and groom by Sujitha's Uncle Murthy and Aunt Vasanthi, the placing of rings upon the toes of the bride by her mother, the giving of gifts, the posing for pictures...*
;)
Even as the more than 1000 guests continue to file through the reception line, bearing gifts and offering congratulations and best wishes before moving into the dining room to eat, I join Murthy and Vasanthi in a cab. Ravi and Buddy give us their goodbyes...
;)
And off we went, to see ancient new places in India, to the north and west. Before returning to London in a week, Sujitha and Manoj would stay in the Biradar home in Pune, and would make a series of visits to a number of temples.
Originally, it had been my plan to follow them through it all, but then Murthy bought me a couple of airplane tickets, reserved multiple touring cabs and hotel rooms for us all and invited me to follow him and Vasanthi on their tour of northwestern India. Suji said I must go, that Jaipur, The Pink City of Rajasthan was wonderful, a place she would like to go. I must not miss such an opportunity, she said.
So I did - and The Pink City was wonderful, as was Udaipur and Ahmadebad, where I got to wander through a quiet and serene compound that Mahatma Ghandi had made home.
At the beginning of this series, I stated my three purposes in coming to India on this, my third trip:
To attend Sujitha and Manoj's wedding, to learn more about India and to attempt to come to terms with the self-inflicted death of Soundarya by visiting the place where she had left this life, the crematorium where her physical matter had returned to the basic state of ash and dust, and to the sacred waters into which her dust and ash had followed that of her husband Anil's.
This journey with Murthy and Vasanthi would accomplish the second goal as stated above - to a degree. India is so vast and varied in landscape, history, culture and tradition that it would take a lifetime of study and travel to even begin to grasp it - if even to begin to grasp India is possible.
I never intended to draw this Return to India series out anywhere near this long, but it was just a slow process for me to work my way through the photos to this point. Essentially, what I have done here is to make an initial, rough, edit as I have crept along and I have involved readers in the process. Except to drop in on a few images here and there for spot checks, I myself had not looked at my different takes until just before I posted them here.
I have not yet looked at the takes I made while traveling with Murthy and Vasanthi. I will save that material for later times, to be dropped in a piece here, a piece there, as I must turn the attention of this blog back to Alaska very soon.
For now, this leaves only the journey in search of coming t terms and peace in the wake of death of the beloveds. Sujitha and I took this journey together, before we left Bangalore for Pune. So I will make one more post to relate something of this journey, followed by a quick post-script.
*I plan to made two slide shows as addendums to this post. One will be a more complete view of the wedding, to include images of the preliminaries to what I have posted today, as described in the narrative above, along with a bit of the followup. The second slide show will just be a score or two of portraits and faces of some of the many people who came to the wedding.
Before I make these slide shows, I will create the final post and post script and set them to appear tomorrow, the final post about 24 hours from now, the post script either the next day or late tomorrow night. If time will allow, I will then make the slideshow addendums and drop them in between this post and the final before I go to bed tonight. If time doesn't allow, I will drop them in tomorrow - but I want to get them in tonight.
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Monday, April 30, 2012 at 11:40PM 
I have uploaded and placed the photos from Sujitha and Manojs wedding in a draft post, but right now I am just too tired to write the text. See, I am a late night person but I had to get up very early this morning to drive Margie to Anchorage so she could spend the rest of the week babysitting rascals while I continue to live like a bachelor. When I have to get up early, I don't sleep. Worse yet, I tried to take a nap this afternoon, but it didn't work.
So, instead, I am posting this 10 image slide show of the wedding band. The instant I saw them dressed in their uniforms, I thought of the cover of the Beatles' Sgt. Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band album. Don't forget - India was big in the Beatles' life at that time and four of the many people pictured around them in the cover are Indians. I am pretty sure they patterned their own outfits after a band very much like this one.
I loved this band - they had soul, they had character - and their music, Wow! Strong! Energetic! Nothing like the Beatles at all; nothing like anything I have heard in the US - or anywhere but here. It is a sound unto itself - an all Indian sound. I wish I could spend a month with them, hang out with them, see what their lives are like - shoot a full-blown photo essay. I would love to do that. Anyway, to see the slideshow, click either on the photo or right here. You will see them in action in the wedding post, too.
I will write the text early Tuesday - or least right after I have my breakfast and coffee and come to. Actually, it probably won't be that early.
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Saturday, April 28, 2012 at 11:39PM 
Instead of my usual picture-word narrative, I am doing this one in a slideshow - in part because I have too many pictures to place inside a regular blog entry. Not all of them will be of interest to everybody, but I am certain they will all be of interest to Sujitha, Manoj and relatives and friends. I am also doing it in part, because I want to get this up tonight and if I take the time to blog it in the usual way, I will have to take the time upload, resize and thumbnail the pictures and then to write it up.
This would keep me up well into the wee hours. So I am going to try it as a slide show.
Although many might look at this and think it is the wedding itself, it is not. This is the Engagement and Haldi Night. The wedding will take place the next day. On this night, the two families will greet each other with blessings and servings of sugar and gifts of coconut, and then the bride and groom will be pampered, blessed, given gifts, painted with tumeric (haldi), showered and in many other ways just made to feel special.
Everyone will have fun.
To western eyes, a couple of shots will look like the part in a wedding ceremony where the bride and groom exchange rings as an acknowledgement that they are now wed. In this case, it symbolizes the engagement.
It is still Saturday night where I sit. On Sunday, I will blog the wedding itself. Perhaps I will do it both ways - a bit of narrative and some slide show. I definitely want to do narrative, but perhaps I can add a slideshow or two to work in a few more photos. If I can find the time, maybe I will just do it in multiple narratives and no slideshow. Personally, I prefer the narrative. In my mind, I can see how to work slideshows and narrative together into one unit in which the words play off the photos, and I am certain the program to do it is out there somewhere, but I don't know where.
Someday in the not distant future, I hope to find it.
To view this slide show, click either on the picture or right here.
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